Hit me....

Okay, here I am..(depression)..again...where do I need to go? Flush down the drama inside the toilet bowl, I am a simple man...if you let go then I am as easy as "okay goodbye" type of guy... We are all in the pursuit of happiness I am in search of mine as you are in search of yours and they are in search of theirs, and I can't spend my time crying over spilled milk, not unless I will kneel down on the floor and lick it (that is reserved for my dog)...okay now what will I do?...tantadadan! MUSIC!!!!

What a better way to be saved from the bullshits of depression and sparing myself from the "I hate myself drama, that I wanna die now".....than grabbing the guitar and sing my heart out....I manage to grab an one million years old artifact from my cabin. I never recalled that I was the president of our school's music club: Guitar, banjo, ukelele, laud, violin, bass, drums, trumpets, flute, rondalla...and recalled all those dots on the music notes? Those seemingly stupid pattern which you think does not make any sense....... Yeah I can read them but a long time ago...its a language that is lost to me, I am going to practice that and maybe do a guitar-laud duet with the kid named Sungha Jung....and now that I am on the go and have the space and freedom to do things I want without the restrictions of being told I will go back"PARTY!!!!!" hit the gym, just toget the lean look back ...get a new skateboard...hit the street...do gigs..and of course be the model of photo shoot...and then hitch back to the desk and do research and this time the whole world is my toy to play with.....DO RESEARCH for Asia and the Pacific....

But please be reminded that I am doing this just to save myself of the mental agonies..a self-help distraction so that by the end of the day I wont get insomnia or cry on my sleep I will just hit the bed and sleep.....so please don't come near me with that stupid sad face and the "its okay I have been depressed all my life" crap, cause your not helping my recovery.....hahahahaha

Lesson learn: "Do not equate happily ever after with distance, economy or status....do not give high expectations to relationships....people come and people go...people change....and when your mouth cannot express the words your heart feels...then sing it...."

~Thursdays with Maurons....